bubble's memories

2008-01-08T00:58:00.000+08:00

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we live under roof,
eat the same food,
watch the same movie,
look at the same sky, and
sleep side by side..

I get used with my life with u and your family..
though life is going to change again soon..
i will really miss your existence,dinasour!

Silent night

2007-11-09T00:57:00.001+08:00

notting hill

2007-11-08T00:34:00.001+08:00

JED presented me BIBLE..THANKS J^.^

Waiting for the fruitful seasons of the year

2007-11-07T15:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night was a blessing..
The first time i was so open to talk with a person whom i only meet for a few times..
But,after saying the burden out..i feel so relieved and lightened...
Her presence makes me feel my mom existence...
i feel so close to her..
And aunty Monica is such a strong woman, she has to raise 5 kids without her husband...
Yet,she can be so positive and joyful in life..
Compare to others who face mishaps in the pathway of life..
i consider myself fortunate....
To have my family,my friend who is being so supportive...
I dont think i can go through all these without them..
Especially to vampire-lover..
Thanks for scolding me,and run like a mad cow with me...
Thanks for waking me up from my slumber, and reminding me throughout the way..
U are a really special chilli padi...
Eventhough we might fail..
We are still be on top of the world!!!
And i wont ever give up on myself!!!

2007-11-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

Today,i give my heart to lord Jesus:>
I dont know where the force come from..
But,i just feel IT...
i am happy and
i feel like a whole new person.
UNDEFEATABLE,coz i am not ALONE..

When aunty ruff and aunty monica hugged me just now..
my tears roll down..
i just feel so warm and familar inside..
it's been so long since someone hug me in that way..

Maybe all i need is a sincere hug...

2007-11-04T16:30:00.000+08:00

For vampire-lover out there..

2007-11-01T02:10:00.000+08:00

CRY -----------------------------@ CRY

2007-10-30T14:24:00.000+08:00

packing all my stuff is like packing my emotion..
feeling of frustration and disappointment that i try hard to hide all these days burst out like thunder..
i expected for all of these to happen,but somehow i am not strong enough to overcome ..
i thought i can make it but in fact i cant..
God knows how i feel..

2007-10-17T15:39:00.000+08:00

Been quite cruel to mom and dad all these days..
talking to them reminds me of bad thing..i just need a short short break..
that's all..
sorry,mom and dad..
i know there is no one to be blamed.but i am just..
i dono..
maybe i just need some time to dilute this emotion..
if crying is a choice..why should we cry then??
waiting for the day to pass..
and cant wait to see wat i can achieve...
it is just a matter of time..

2007-09-25T12:25:00.000+08:00

oh gosh..
feel like i am in hot water bath now and if i can, i want to dig a hole to hide in nowhere..
although it is just a meaningless words and fun jokes, i feel so embarrassing...
why ??
it was as if i go back to my old high school days when i have a crush on someone..
i am so so out of my mind!!!

2007-08-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

yes, i should be happy..
Should be grateful..
should feel satisfied...
BUT, why am i not???

2007-08-04T19:24:00.001+08:00

ALoNE...

May Ling's first drum session

Kai Tong's cuTe poSes^.^

2007-07-01T09:43:00.000+08:00

Finally, i am back to west malaysia...
Completed half of my pharmacy practice this holiday, but i only managed to accomplish half of my holiday's plan..oOps, i did it again!!

I wander why can i be so foolish and forgetful..supposed to get my results on Friday ..But...
i FORGOT my unisa password!i have to wait till Monday..Torturing days..

Before that, i go to visit my wm's mom along with some friends.She looks different with she used to be...she becomes older and fatigue...Doctor diagnosed her illness as last stage breast cancer...In her eyes, i see how helpless she is...What is going to happen to her children if miracle doesn't appear?? She is right about one thing, human being cant control everything..We come and leave without being told...As a single mother of three children, she gone through a lot, shouldered all the burden, citicism and hardship...It ain't easy...my tears fall as i listen to her stories..Now, she can only cling to the tiny scrape of hope, and which is also the most ultimate of all------GOD.

She told us to believe in GOD and to pray..
I am not so into GOD, but as i go through all these days..With all the changes i saw in my fellow friends...i start to pray more and move my steps closer to GOD..
GOD, please give aunty strength to go through all these and please dont take away her life...
Dont scrape away her children hope and give them the courageous to face any circumstances..
Life is short and unpredictable..She reminds me again..Appreciate and love our parents, because we never know what will happen the next day..

2007-06-09T16:19:00.000+08:00

finally!!can sign in already...
long time never blog..
coz busying with exam...
things change and actually i dont feel bad about anything...it is weird but i dont think it is worth to be sad for things that doesnt reali belongs to you.,,,
and after exam i can go back to my hometown!!!and leave all the complicated ppl who wear mask..
feel quite sick when i face them actually...they smile and treat you as usual, but you actually dono wat they think...But, dont really care about the change...
i just wan to take life easily and appreciate everything around me ,...
so, take your time to hate me or whatever...coz i dont think of mending it anymore..enough for what i get through and i think you have enough too..

2007-04-22T16:59:00.000+08:00

Baby is so cute !!!

love babies !!!

2007-04-20T14:03:00.000+08:00

lazy to blog nowadays..
cant reali express my feeling with words...
dun reali know what i reali pursuit..
and coward me cant talk frankly like what is in my mind..
thanks for the session in the library that day because i will reali go crazy if that conversation never exist...
trying to make changes in me..
but, is tat possible??can i make it..
i duno..
but,i will keep trying...
hc,sorry for everything i did in the past..
act,i dont like to be a tin kosong..and it hurt me somehow..
i dont want to be a tin kosong that rust fast and dumped without being known what is hidden inside..
although it is empty,it deserves to have its own feeling rite??
maybe i am not accepted in someway,but dont mean that i dont deserve good things rite??

2007-04-10T11:19:00.000+08:00

sigh...sigh...sigh...
i want myself to go back to where i belong,when i was happier...
i am longing for my home..

2007-04-09T20:37:00.000+08:00

i miss my family..
i want to go home..
staying here make me weird..with my existence..and i am not as usual...living days like this is suffocating me..
can somebody tell me what is wrong with my brain???
it is not functioning..

2007-04-06T00:34:00.000+08:00

i love LUNA..pity sakai.wuakaka

devil VS angel

cute guys with the bags...

waiting,waiting and waiting..

euGene n shirley

guys of da day..

crowded Sunday

happy skating dayY

acting cute(vomit@.@)

2007-04-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

. devils in da garden,thou we dun look like one..

bubble with bubble..

melody aka smallleaf tat i will treasure,be tough gal!

two idiot:p

spoil the beauty of the pic by closing my eyes again..

jump high!!

like this pic lots..

junk food session 2

junk food session 1.

first pic in genting..

mayling is my master!!wuakaka..

acting cool, ml is the champion

so near yet so far...

2007-04-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

first time editing..hehe.got some technical problem

fRen tat i heart..

2007-04-05T21:28:00.000+08:00

sakai

devil

fai po

2007-04-05T13:36:00.000+08:00

sigh..
complicated..complicated..complicated..
stuck in the middle of the road and thinking of the best road to drive..
i dont want to lose you, dear.i dont want, watching you cry dont make me feel any better..
but, i know my existence there wont help or even make it worse..
can anyone tell me what can i do??for all of us...
plz1!!!!

2007-04-04T16:34:00.000+08:00

Been going to hospital to visit ml's sister and before we left, we dropped by at baby section..
The babies are cocooned in pure white clothes,and they sleep in peace..
i love baby..whenever i see them, it reminds me of life..indeed,ppl often forget where they come from and what is the purpose of living..
We are brought into this world by no choice..and till now..
i still have thousands of questions in my mind...
why r we living??i seriously dont know..am i alive for my parents??alive for my dreams?alive for the person you love?
Living for the past 18 years and gone through different circumstances like other ordinary human being..
But when i look back and think of all those times, it was like a dream..
if all the memory is a dream,then what is memory for??is it proof that we've been living for years??or are we just trying to prove that we are alive..
as i grow and know more..it seems like everything have changed, i tend to search for ANSWERs...
answers for uncertainty in me and uncertainty in life..
of course i know i am alive,but i am not sure if i am really ALIVE..

2007-03-21T07:18:00.000+08:00

A day to remember...

pasT is defintely a past..

and time flies....

2007-03-19T00:57:00.000+08:00

i dunno why i am so useless in times like this??
why cant i be helpful to the one that means so much to me??
i wish i can be their saviour, not burden.

2007-03-18T21:04:00.000+08:00

RelaxinG Wednesday night...

With da Gals...

yupppiEE!!!Finally can online after a week with da bugging modem..

but strangE, suddenly blank...

so will stop hErE...

canT wait till the orientation day n aso HOliday!!!

although it's just a week brEAK,who cares..holiday is the best!!

2007-03-15T22:05:00.000+08:00

A day For Bread LoVErs...yuMMie..!!

2007-03-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

an enjoyable day with pai gu....

an out-date pic..but i reali miss mommi le..

2007-03-15T21:15:00.000+08:00

camwhoring session after bbQ..

i like may ling in red that day...

my cousin, Albert ...he is S & A...

my firSt sishA in keMang, Indonesia..

my DEarest cousin, Sandra..miss her so much...

Sandy and me ..hopE tat he is doing finEe...

The sweetest couple...alDo n Sandra..

Miss you all in Indonesia...

Sandra, Yiyi suSi,Papa kiki, Mami yani, Albert,Aldo,Sandy,Dimaz...

and i m a bit homesick..

i miss my sister and parents so so much..

caNt wait till holiday Comes...

2007-03-15T21:11:00.000+08:00

As time goes by, life begins to change..
The one you used to treat as a lover has now transformed into your friend. .Is this a good beginning or a grievous ending..i dunno..
Again, i was plagued by dilemma and eventually focus more on pain than happiness..
Somehow,the happiness seems to be different...
Girls r real different with guys..why???
I hate the way i m now,try to make my day as hectic as possible..just to pass through one day...
Love really can brighten one's life and doom one's dream too..
Why is human's love so fragile??
If we know we have to end in tears ,why should we start???
If only i can stop my heart from missing you
If only...

2007-03-04T09:58:00.000+08:00

guess who??

again,i blog after ages..like wat sakai said,i will onli blog when i have a broken heart..

well,she is right...

But,nevermind..i will try my very best to think positively, after all i still have ppl who care about me around..

somemore,An ending is not an ending..I will have a new start very soon..hehe..

hope so...

wish me luck..

2006-08-31T22:12:00.000+08:00

today is my birthday...
last night,i was really touched with my bunch of frens..they are so sweet ...
when i saw them inside my room,i was like..wow..and tears start to fall...i can feel my heart bumping and i was really happy..
so happy that i duno wat to say..
in tat moment,i forgot all my sadness and bad memories...
thanks ya..frens..
except thank u,i duno wat should i say.....
bc u all really mean a lot to me..
a lot.....

2006-08-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

shirley is back once again..
so happy and relieved after talking to my mom..
i feel so fortunate to have all my friends who never give up on me..
i love u all..
muaks..

2006-08-28T20:43:00.000+08:00

love is a game.i lose in this game and i duno how much time i need to heal but now i am really suffering.sleepless nights make me feel like hell and i cant imagine wat will i do if things continue to happen in this way.i keep on telling to myself tat life goes on,but it doesnt help much.Tears are like curse and dreams are like nightmare.this is the second time i fell so badly and for me,it is really hard...

if only i could turn back time,but i know it is impossible.going to college with the eyes swollen..i really look ugly and i realy dun feel like going..my birthday is coming and for the first time of my life,i hate my birthday..i dun wan it to come..if can,tat day i wan to hide myself in a world tat nobody can find me...

i feel sorry for my friends.all i offer is trouble..they dun deserve tat,but i am really grateful to have them by my side and without them,i really will break down..

2006-08-07T20:42:00.000+08:00

This hour, this minute, this second..i am really confused..things start to be complicated...
i dont know if i can move on...from i was first in love,till now..i always get stucked in the middle of no way..i myself cant figure out why things always get to be like that..i dunno..i really duno..
and i feel like going back to the start point...Again,i am lost..
i hate myself...

2006-07-02T18:44:00.000+08:00

sad..Wake up this morning having sore throat made me sick..i have a bad feeling tat i will get sick in these few days.missing someone dearly but cant do anything and i really feel helpless.time is cruel and it really does..how i hope i can twist back the time and embrace the happiness tight..but..sigh~~sob.
The only thing tat makes me happy is my mom.She will come this Wednesday and cook me delicious food.I really miss her and her food.hehe and so glad tat i dun have to wash my clothes this week.
last nite i stay overnight at horse horse.i read the card she left on the table and my heart squirmed after reading it.although i dun go through the same situation as horse did,i can feeel how glad and released she felt after reading that card..Horse,dun worry ya..just go to the place where you are belong to..i support u no matter wat decision you make and have fun when u are there..

2006-06-24T22:54:00.000+08:00

Rachel,so here i am..start creating my blog..
hundreds of feeling agitate me and somehow make me speechless..
there are dozen of words i wan to say...but i will make it short..
my dear,i cherish and appreciate u ...ur affection and optimism infect me lots...
and nv in my life will i forget u!!!